realize

these days i need to really focus and make some good realizations. i dont want to dig to deep into these dreams that i have. i hate having expectations for myself. i need to just work with what i have and be okay with it and try to be okay with it and be okay with it. that is something that i am trying to get to understand. for the first time in a long time i can feel myself hiding from my head. i keep running away from all that it is that my head wants to think about and that is really not a good thing to do. and i dont want to do it. but i can feel my head creating these walls. and i know they are there right now. and it seems okay because i know they are there right now.